Lately I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed by things going on in my life and things (big, HUGE things) going on in my bestie’s life. I keep telling myself to pull up my big-girl panties because people have much more serious things going on in their lives (wildfires, hurricanes, senseless shootings) that make what we’re going through small by comparison.
It brings back a lot of my childhood and early adulthood, when I was told not to show my emotions about anything and sometimes even told that my emotions were wrong. I’ve since learned that what I feel is never, ever wrong, but I still can’t help but expect myself to “just get over them”, in essence, ignore them and/or pretend they don’t exist.
This week I had the same problem with my car that I’d had a couple of weeks ago, and it threw me for a loop because I thought I’d fixed the problem (it seemed obvious to me how to fix it) and what I had tried had done nothing to alleviate the problem. For the very first time in my life (at least as I recall), I played ostrich and buried my head in the sand to avoid dealing with the problem for over 48 hours. I just had a sense that dealing with it immediately would be the proverbial straw that broke the camel’s back. I actually did a good job imitating an ostrich but then also felt guilt slip in because I went for over 2 days ignoring it instead of just dealing with it.
So anyhow, I came across this recently and it hit me right where I needed to be hit. What a blessing to have this reach me just when I needed it.
I keep re-reading it, attempting to let it soak me with its wisdom all the way to my heart and soul. In case one of my readers is also facing a mountain that seems too big right now, I wanted to share it.
Ramblings and Ruminations 
such a good reminder when it all seems too much
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That was perfect for me today too. If you follow my blog you’ll see the mountain(s) I’ve been climbing, ones that were getting to be too much. So thank you for that! I might need to post it all over the house, or at least in the kitten foster room.
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This is good advice. And, again, it takes training to put into practice. I immediately thought about a very old book by Susan Jeffers: “Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway.” The title says it all but she leads you to tackle fears in a sensitive way. I hope you and your bestie achieve a sense of peace and make progress toward your challenges. May those mountains become pebbles.
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I’m so glad this was helpful for you. I put a sticky note on the wall beside my coffee maker on which I’ve written, “Remember that any progress forward, no matter how small, is still progress.” I’m still working on forgiving myself for not being able to DO IT ALL!
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I realized, after I’d read this several times, that part of my problem lies in the fact that I have higher expectations for myself than I do for others. I’ve just started reframing that as “I need to be better than others” and that hit me really hard because I don’t consciously feel that way at all! And it’s becoming liberating as I look at each situation and ask myself if I’d be upset if anyone else failed it or didn’t achieve all of it. Wow, talk about a light-bulb moment!
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This is great!! Glad you found it when you needed it. And don’t feel bad for being upset about your problems. Yes, people have bigger problems like wildfires and hurricanes but your problems are still important!
(((Hugs)) to you for better days ahead.
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